Road less travelled!

I am about to embark on a journey..which i do not would lead where?
It is not the road I am worried about, it's the destination..that makes me cranky..

Do I even know..what is the reason? I can feel weiredness within me..but can't exactly define it.. Can't explain it..even to myself...

why am I worried and who is that I am afraid of? Of myself...or of others..or of my reactions/mood swings that i can get after seeing others' reactions??

Why are these others so important??Why?? when none of them makes any difference to my life?? These others do not share, add,bring joy to my world..so why bother??

I guess..it's not them..it's me...my own self that is looking outside for reassurance of my talent and prestige..m unable to look completely within me and decipher the beauty that lies here..just here..with me...which needs to be seen and felt only by me..

hmm..m ..alas on the road less travelled and therefore the mystery is for me to unravel...!

restless!

Each day is bringing with it an amazing amount of restlessness! Restlessness is the essential nutrient for a evergrowing zeal..however,I have suddenly my fears, what if this goes terribly wrong..? Hell with you! Stupid that you are!<i> These days i feel a very strong urge to write down what i feel, need lest i forget it and ruin it forever..lest m unable to what i was set out to...this, my friend is a inner battle, fought in the deep corners of my heart...understood, only by me and borne only by me... I am just like the solitary reaper...who has set himself a task..and if he loses..he loses everything.. he is solitary..not alone though..as he has his best friend with him....himself..

Royal Dissonance!

It is not even funny!

The last one year has been nothing less than a roller coaster....Understanding marriage better and therefore your role in the same...figuring out things that you had never before even given a thought to and ..not forgetting the dependencies that u get used to...that u get used to rely on...and yesss..then there is a New identity..and a New identity CLASH..

hehehee....Identity clash coz...it is one thing when u CAN prioritise one thing over the other..however, what if you can't? What if YOU ARE GREEDY and you want everything..best of both the worlds.....what then??

Then...the royallll. confusion or in OB terms..COGNITIVE DISSONANCE( thank god ! I remember that term from my MBA days)

Ok..So in the past time..I have been greeted by failure more than once..Infact more than what I have faced so far, put together.That's why I said, it's not even funny!Yupp....and they have brought to me a low...the obvious low...but they have done something else as well...

They have made me believe that " Any thing that doesn't Kill you, makes you stronger."

and yess..here iam ...realsing that those failures were more of gateways to new domains..things that I have never tried before...the sheer fact that I am trying them out in itself is a great success...

and guess what...thank god for this year and its setbacks..m geared up for this coming year..and more relaxed in terms of facing the unknown..knowing that whatever I step into, success or not..I will make the best out of it!!

and nothing more can spell LOVE OF LIFE more than this for me!

What does!

Have been crazyy...Have been wild..
Have been fun all the while..
have sometimes thought way too much
and sometimes..have taken a decision just like that..

I wonder what is life to me??
I wonder where it is taking me?
What is that interests me?
Do i know that still or..

Well. i don't have answers..
Have my insecurities, have my opinions..
Have all it takes to fall down..and then..get up again..
Have love and life...
and wonder is all that matters?
If not, what does??

opportunities!

hmm...just today this dawned upon me..that u never really fail in life....u fail when u accept your defeat and you close yourself to any other opportunities that come across..but the more you are willing to accept the situation as it is, the more would you be able to see opportunities...

and by experience..i know...the alternative that you take is generally more beautiful than the original option! you just never realised it!

Beat the Blues!! STRESSS BUSTERS!

yupp...do that exactly...and quite literally...BEAT the stress out of your life!!BEAT ITTT!!How?? Here we go...My tried and tested whacky ideas..They always work!!
1) Drink! alcohol, tea, juice whatever suits you..just sip it up!!yess..just ensure that you have switched off that non stop machine on your shoulders...and look around and enjoy the surroundings!

2)Leave being a Bathroom singer and come out and croon to glory! My take whacky, enthusiastic, rockingggggg, cracking songs....songs that will make you sinnggg along, shout at the top of your voice...just go plain crazzzyyy...stop being just a bathroom singer..let the world feel your glorry!

3)playing is not for children..it is for the child within us: my fav..ludo..cheat man...just play twisted and enjoy the mayhem thereafter...A game a day...keeps the stress awayy!

4)Creativity is not for closets! Do something whacky...cook a new dish..with new combinations...create a dress out of your already existing one...just do it! or may be create awesome or not so awesome art work out of waste...just put your stress to better use!

5)And lastly..do what is called OSHO meditation....dance...dance...go mad dancing..do not worry about..the steps or the performance..what the heck..it is meant for you..not for anyone else..make noise..have fun..go wild!!

all these work wonders for me..may be they work for you too!!

the recruting Blunder!

Phew!!!1 the last few days have been killing!!Has made me realise a few things...

In a country full of zillion ppl looking for employment opportunities, ppl who are educated, sometimes, very well educated..don't end up getting jobs..They have to wait endlessly to any company to respond to their applications.

Ppl say there are consultants who would take care of this, however, being from HR, i know...that none of the consultants take up the segment of junior level appointments..mainly because..companies pay them peanuts for such profiles...which means that there is no AID to these freshers who may not have graduated from the best colleges!

Business wise, i look at this as a huge opportunity and a need...that ppl are reluctant to look at!

What this kind of approach overlooks is the fact that intelligence is not all about education..I have witnessed utmost intelligence , sensitivity and willingess to do something in most of the colleges which may not be your BEST colleges..!
I believe HR doesn't have any other option.this seems like a perfect way to sieve through plethors of applications that pour in.However, this is what i feel..A CV is just paper...may be ...talking could be better..could give you a better picture..
So next time you outrightly reject a CV, look for pointers which tell you about the person and not the paper alone!