M on a new..absolutely stunning journey..towards self exploration these days...
so..yes..the life seems chaotic these days..totally chaotic...coz there are so many questions...so many unanswered questions...that your head is brimming with thought all the time!
So what am i exploring these days...myself..my feelings, my happiness, my unfulfilled desires..my career, my expression, my love,almost everything that life has to offer. It is indeed a very deep journey into myself..of figuring out..what actually makes me happy..why do i get sad? which ppl affect me..and why?? why do i make comparisons..and with whom?? why doesn't a moment of blissful silence of a silent mind remain forever??what am i here for?? what is that i wanna do?? what gives me a high?? Do i have the courage to take it through??
Uff..these and many more that keep on coming my way...but one thing is for sure..the greater i am exploring these..the closer I am coming to myself..my true nature..my true self without any hassles..without any masks..without any fear whatsoever...It is indeed gonna be some journey!
So what's the latest where i have trusted my instincts is..quitting my job and becoming a trainer..a trainer is a glamorous word for a teacher..(coz..so ironically we all happen to believe that a teacher is only a school teacher!!)So basically I am teaching, to who so ever happens to require my guidance at whatever level i can..and in the process am learning myself!i have started firmly believing in the maxim " When a student is ready, the master appears"!!i don't know who is the student and master in this case..that is what time would unveil!
This experience has undoubtedly bought me the satisfaction that i have been looking for years...the feeling of you being able to make a difference, may be only to one student..but yes..u made a difference! is just awesome...and that is where i guess my life had to bring me..coz something within me was always creating this..looking for this..
and..yes..the sense of relief that you get once you are on your own is much more than the so called security that a Corporate MNC offers you...they obvioulsy don't secure you..they work more on making you insecure..about your career, your package and yes your status...and eventually manage to kill that uniqueness in you..coz you become part of the crowd..like so many others!!
So finally..one exploration and the awesome feeling post it...makes me wanna go for more..try out horizons that have always been dreams..but could never become a reality for me....
m out there..!! having fun!!